Saturday, 30 March 2013
This is the gift I offer here: there is no point pushing your body and your digestive system into slimming if the weight that you have been carrying has been the way that your body has put in place to protect you from whatever it thinks you need to be protected from. This is why on my journey and on the journey I offer, we first go to the root of the weight issue before we even take any action to help the body slim. Let me illustrate this with an example from my own journey.
Let's turn the light on to what is really happening when we put on weight. :)
I wrote my book in 2009, inspired by angels (nudged, you could say). I felt great and my body was in a shape that I loved. Then in 2010, I got pregnant with my fourth baby. And during the birthing process (right after her birth actually) I experienced bullying from the very people who were supposed to support the birthing process of my precious baby. Then four months later, I was again bullied by some health providers who tried to separate me from my baby for reasons I won't get into at this stage. In effect, I experienced two huge emotional traumas that knocked my socks off.
Two years down the line, I am carrying some extra weight on my tummy area that is the direct result of that trauma. At the time of the trauma, I had no one to talk to, no one to help me go through it, so I INTERNALISED the emotional pain. This made my body feel HEAVY and unsafe. And I have carried that feeling ever since. As one of my most precious friends remarked: you are doing everything right to slim and yet it is getting worse (she was doing an intuitive reading for me). I nearly cried with joy because I felt so stuck to the point of doubting my very work and words. She added that the solution was very easy: I needed to repair my solar plexus chakra that had been attacked and which as a result I had covered in fat to protect.
This is PRECISELY the kind of work that I do... except, I wasn't able to do it for myself. I am so grateful to have her in my life. So the very thing that I felt was questioning the validity of my work at the Journey of the slim soul was actually the very thing that was validating it: I just needed a little help from my friend.
Now I know, just as I have witnessed it with so many of my clients, that the slimming is going to be easy because I have gone to the root of the issue. No amount of healthy eating and exercising would have had any effect until my body was comforted in the fact that I was safe and that my tummy fat was no longer needed. Don't you love the simplicity of this work?
What is your body trying to tell you through the weight that it carries? You can find some possible answers in my book but ultimately it is your body that is going to tell you what is really going on. Why? Because the body reflects the truth of your subconscious. Your subconscious is here to keep you safe. It doesn't matter if what it thinks is a threat to you is real or in your imagination or if it happened years ago and you can let go of the fear. It is your subconscious-body intelligence that needs to be aligned with your intent. The work of the journey of the slim soul can help you do exactly that.
Blessings of light
Posted by Ange de Lumiere at 1:06 pm
Friday, 29 March 2013
I have had a massive migraine on day 1 and 2. It was so huge that at the end of day 2, I reached out for my migraine medication. There is only so much pain one can put up with. I am refusing to judge myself for it. In the detox group I joined, I saw a lot of people say "keep with it, it will go away" or "just go to bed". I hear their advice, but at the end of the day: it's me and my body. My body said: that's enough.
I welcomed that migraine, however, because it helped me to understand its cause. I have had migraines since the age of 12 (same age I started my periods). I could say: it runs in the family, as my mother, aunt and brother also suffer from migraines, but I am an energy worker and I know better about the link between the body and the mind. As I asked my body why it was manifesting those migraines and it said to me "Unthinkable".
It all made sense. I have been subject to the unthinkable. I was abused by people who were very close to me from when I was wearing nappies and it was such a betrayal that the cells of my body have decided to express that trauma through migraines. I am hoping that now that I have listened to my body, it can express it differently. In fact, this revelation enabled me to affirm for myself "I release the need to express the unthinkable through the excruciating pain of migraines". They say that detoxes bring a lot of emotional stuff to the surface and I have to say I agree. That shouldn't put you off doing one, by all means. Be brave. The healing process takes courage but it is so worth it.
And today, on day 7, I have a cold. A full blown cold with a running nose, itchy ears and a painful throat. I am so proud of myself: for a whole week, I lived on juices, smoothies, salads and nuts. Even better, my mind didn't create havoc by telling me it was not possible to do that and not be hungry at the same time.
Despite this great achievement, I decided tonight to stop my detox. Most people will tell you that the first four days of a detox are the hardest and that after that you feel great. At day 7, I still feel miserable as I now have a cold. I had to listen to my body and ask it: is this good for you? And it said to me "not the right time". There is a combination of things but I think being an energy sensitive, this year's combination of the equinox energies so close to the full moon and to Easter made me very vulnerable. The tipping point, however, was the outside temperature: here in the South West of England, we have had temperatures below 0 Celsius (freezing temperature) and that is highly unusual. My body was struggling to cope with the cold as well as coping with the detox, so I had to make the choice of seemingly giving up.
I have not given up. I have not failed. In fact, I am a victor because me and my body are in harmony. We work as a team. It is so important on your journey to a healthier you to learn to listen to your body, whether you are starting an exercise programme, a new healthier eating habit... or anything else. I cannot emphasise enough how important to see what works for you. I already knew detoxes right after Christmas do not work for me. Now I know that detoxes on the equinox, when the weather is freezing, does not work either. I will get back to my wonderful raw food detox when the weather warms up and when the sun shines more. Not enough vitamin D and warmth for me to survive on salads.
Blessings of light
Posted by Ange de Lumiere at 1:05 am
Sunday, 24 March 2013
I thought to myself, I have not done all this good work of using a juicer for the first time, following the delicious recipes for a few hours to blow it.
But I think the secret lies in three things for me.
The first thing is that I take one day at a time, and even one hour at a time. I tell myself (and it is true) that I can stop anytime I want. Funnily enough, this is the best foundation for my success. I find this is the same in relationships and in any long term project that one commits to: one step at a time. It makes the whole thing much less daunting.
The second thing that helps is knowing intuitively that we can live without food. I know this is a radical statement that denies everything I have every been conditioned to believe, but since reading "Life from light" by Michael Werner, I know it's possible. This sounds crazy but up to reading that book, I thought only mystics and yogis who spend their lives in caves meditating could do without food. Not anymore. Michael Werner is a chemistry teacher in a secondary school in Switzerland who doesn't even call himself spiritual. He started the experiment, as an experiment. He met a woman who lived form prana, and it got him curious and because of the scientific mind that is his: he decided to try it out. He hasn't eaten anything in eight years. Well that was at the time he wrote his book. Does that blow your mind? It did mine.
This doesn't mean everybody should stop eating now. And certainly I wouldn't use this argument to starve myself "anorexic" style. God forbid. What it means to me is that there are other ways to nourish ourselves than food. And being the energy worker that I am, I have experimented with a few things, such as for example barefooting, and it's actually reduced my appetite.
The third thing is that I am LISTENING to my body. And that is the boon of working with the journey of the slim soul. I know I am a unique individual whose needs are different from EVERYONE else. What works for my best friend doesn't necessarily for me. What works for a celebrity might not be what works for me. So I have learnt to listen to MY body wisdom. And everybody can connect to their own body wisdom. This is my gift to you.
This is the third detox I am doing. The first one was cutting out dairy, wheat, meat, coffee, alcohol and sugar for a whole month. I never even thought I could do so when I reached the end of that month, I was elated. I didn't even know I had it in me. The second detox I did was a green juice one. I have to admit it was a good thing I didn't know what I signed up for, because otherwise I would have ran away screaming. It was a whole week living on only green juices (a third cucumber, a third celery and a third spinach). I am obviously simplifying because there was a build up of cutting out the bits from my first detox gradually and then launching into the week on juices. And again, amazingly enough, I did it. For a girl who was convinced she could NOT live without her carbs, that was an eye opening experience: I wasn't hungry once.
This third one is taking it to the next level. Its a juicing detox. And in fact, on the journey of the slim soul, I recommend three levels of detox, depending on what your diet is like to start with. If you eat a lot of junk food, go out a lot to restaurants, then level 1 is more appropriate. I wouldn't recommend my juice detox to someone who just started from there. There would be too much of a shock to the system.
I have approached this detox with this knowledge that it is actually possible to live without food: if you are able to tap into the universal source of energy that sustains all life. And that has given me the strength to do this detox and not worry about being hungry or not having enough food. In fact, the opposite happened. As my mind relaxed and embraced the process, I found myself struggling to drink and eat everything that is suggested on the plan. Now that is amazing from a girl that used to be hungry all the time.
Have a great day my lovelies.
Speak to you soon
Blessings of light
Posted by Ange de Lumiere at 8:19 am
Thursday, 21 March 2013
What has helped however, is some homeopathic remedies that Sarah Johnson-Knight has sent me to help with the feeling of despair. Little miss is now nearly two years old and it's been a drag. I have been doing the nights on my own, as with my other three children and sleep deprivation is hard.
Not to worry though, the beauty of the journey of the slim soul is that you can always work on some angle. I don't use food as a crutch. I have started in the past six months to eat healthily again. I cook meals again. It's one little step at a time.
And now, in the midst of this beautiful Spring Equinox, I am about to start a smoothie and juice detox. The first step was to get into the mood of starting a detox. I find it takes a few day for my "inner critic" or as I prefer to call it "monkey mind" to calm down and accept the fact that I am going to do it. What it does, however, and I have to laugh at it, is push me to reach for crisps - which normally I don't really care about. Oh, don't get me started on the monkey mind: it's a character. It is super clever at sabotaging anything good you want to do for yourself. Luckily, I have devised a way to engage it. I talk about it in my book: start a dialogue with it. It's only scared and it wants to make sure you don't make a fool of yourself. It rehearses all the criticism and silly arguments against taking risks and trying something new.
I have already started brushing up my eating in the past few weeks. I cannot and will not recommend launching into a detox without listening to one's body and my body was telling me to ease off the wine first, then the coffee. And that is what I have been doing for the past few weeks. It has also asked me to eat wholemeal bread with organic butter, marmite and houmous every morning and to replace my nut coffee by a hot lemon. I can already feel a difference in my energy levels.
I ordered a juicer-masticater... it's an investment in my health. I much rather would pay less for a holiday and use the money for that than fly to an exotic destination (at the moment I still have to chose, but I am in the manifesting game so soon, that won't be an issue anymore). My health is my investment in my self. My body is my temple.
I have also done a couple of weeks of green smoothies. I used to do green smoothies by just adding a couple of greens such as spinach or herbs to a fruit smoothie but I found recently that mixing a third of celery, a third of cucumber and a third of spinach with some organic pressed apple juice is just fantastic. It must taste good because little miss, at two years old, always asks for my drink. We call it the Shrek juice.
Anyway, must go. Will be blogging about my detox in the days to come.
Blessings of energy and light
Posted by Ange de Lumiere at 7:15 pm